So for some reason I have put off this post a bit. I’m not entirely sure why. I think part of it is that it still doesn’t really feel real that in 9 days I will be leaving for London and Rome for 3 weeks. It still feels like this weird dream that I might wake up from or a really elaborate, no celebrity punk’d. It’s not though. Guys, I’m going to Europe! I’m going to London! I’m going to Rome and the Mediterranean sea! What is even happening?!?
It’s weird because I’ve been away from Portland for 4 weeks before. I spend 3 months or more away from my home town but this time feels different. I’m not just going back to Idaho for the holidays or heading back to Portland for school. I am headed to a place that is 100% new to me. A place where nothing is familiar. I’m excited for the new, the uncharted territory and the differences I will experience. I’m also slightly terrified. I’ve never really traveled somewhere so foreign, unless you count Texas 😉 I’m nervous about my return, coming back to Portland to real life with real bills is stressful for me since I will miss 3 weeks of income, but you know, this whole thing worked out and so with that. Also I’m going to miss so many people! Kirk, Tamra, Kathrine, Lainey, Laith, everyone at Marylhurst, etc! I’ll also miss working, strange I know. And I’ll actually miss my garden! I find so much peace out there.
I’m also a little afraid of the plane ride for a number of reasons. I’ve never been on a flight longer than 2 hours, I’m afraid my muscles might get tense and trigger a series of migraines and I’ve always had an irrational fear of flying over the ocean. However, I’m pretty excited to fly in a huge plane, I’m excited to re-watch the Harry Potter movies and I can crochet all the things in a 9 hour flight!!
It may sound strange but I’m kinda afraid of information overload. I’m afraid I’ll come back and people will ask, “How was your trip??” and It will be such a crazy blur in my head that I can’t even describe it! I’m also a bit afraid of the travel bug this may stir up in me. Luckily I’m young and have many years to see the world.
I can’t really put into words how really truly excited I am though. I am overwhelmed by the support I have gotten to make this trip happen. I am overwhelmed by the fireworks that are going off in my heart every time I think about being in London and Rome. I’m overwhelmed with emotion almost daily ( and writing this whole post) I seriously am so glad I get to take this trip through and with Marylhurst. This school has been an incredible staple in my life and it makes this trip just that much more magical. Truly.
alive, and going to Europe in 9 days.